When I was pregnant I knew I would breastfeed, I’m not entirely sure why, it just felt like the right thing for me. I went to a breastfeeding course online but I didn’t really do any other prep. I guess I thought it was just something which happened naturally and therefore I had no idea of the possible difficulties.
My daughter struggled to latch from birth and for the first day or two I was hand expressing colostrum into a syringe and feeding her that way. My midwife suggested nipple shields which did help the baby to latch. However we then had problems with reflux, constant feeding, and a very sad baby who was losing weight. I repeatedly asked if she was tongue tied and was repeatedly told she wasn’t. 7 weeks of anxiety, stress, panic, and lots of tears later we had her tongue tie snipped privately and she immediately latched without nipple shields for the first time. This changed everything, she came off reflux medication, gained weight, and was generally happier.
Breastfeeding has been a roller coaster journey with many other ups and downs along the way (bottle refusal, returning to work etc). However it is the most rewarding thing I have ever done. My daughter and I have an extremely close and special bond. Not only did my body grow her but it continues to nourish her 19 months later, that’s pretty incredible I reckon!